Cantar De Procella

Fay P.: Yes, A. has been flirting with G. And S. with C. Have we ERPed? No. You don't believe me,I don't care any more. I tried talk with you last night,I didn't get anything. You didn't even know what/if there's something you want off me. I accepted it,and thought that was it. And now this. What did you expect,exactly,Rob? You didn't tell me anything,what am I supposed to do,exactly? Sit around and wait?
Fay P.: And I cannot BELIEVE you dared compare what WE shared, with RP. IT's just...I cannot fucking believe it.
Fay P.: You want me out? Fine.
Robert: Your actually acting like the victim again here?
Fay P.: I'm not acting like anything.
Robert: You come telling me you miss me, you think you regret making the decision you did.
Robert: And meanwhile your off flirting with every man and his fucking dog?
Robert: Why did you text me in the first place?
Fay P.: ON WOW ???????????????
Robert: WHATS THE DIFFERENCE?
Fay P.: Are you SERIOUS??????
Robert: YOUR STILL FUCKING DOING IT.
Fay P.: There is NO difference for you between WoW and the rest????????
Fay P.: You think cause my chars flirted with two guys that's ME ??????
Robert: Yes theres a difference, but in comparison to what you did last night, Im not having it.
Robert: Oh what happened to you acting like S.?
Fay P.: To what I did last night....?
Robert: What happened to S. being a part of you?
Robert: Stop bullshitting me.
Robert: "Btw C. is 20. Hurhurhur"
Fay P.: I said I Role Play her according to who I am.
Robert: Good for you.
Fay P.: ....
Fay P.: You HONESTLY think I have feelings or that I like those people IRL?
Robert: Obviously you like G., since you fucking keep having him back no-matter-what.
Fay P.: He's fun,to PLAY A GAME WITH.
Robert: I dont give a fuck.
Robert: Dont fuck with my head.
Robert: Its not whether you ERP with them or not.
Robert: This is fucking no different to when i apparently -flirted- with Tharenya, and you went nuts at me OOCly.
Fay P.: We were still together then.
Robert: If you want G. that much.
Robert: Fucking have him.
Robert: But leave me the fuck alone.
Fay P.: I don't give a fuck about G.
Robert: I tried to open up AGAIN to you last night. And for what?
Robert: So you can pretend its all hunky dory and flirt with other people, whether its IG or not, its YOU behind the pixel.
Fay P.: How can I make you understand I don't take that stuff seriously? To me,that is NOTHING.
Robert: If you wanted to shag around IG thats your choice, but you didnt have to call me back and fill my head with crap again.
Fay P.: STOP FUCKING SAYING THAT! I MEANT EVERY WORD I SAID!
Robert: You dont take it seriously?
Robert: You took it serious enough when it was me.
Robert: Whats to say you wont do it again?
Fay P.: The only time I started taking it seriously was with you!
Fay P.: When we started connecting IRL!
Robert: Nanahr was taken seriously.
Robert: You said it yourself.
Robert: Indeed.
Fay P.: But that...was talking,I don't understand
Robert: Everything i began to believe last night, just went to hell once again.
Robert: Well done.
Fay P.: Started believing? What are you talking about?
Robert: "I missed you, I like you"
Fay P.: I do.
Robert: "I regret leaving you"
Robert: Bollocks.
Fay P.: I said I don't know if I took the right decision.
Fay P.: I told you that it s my fear as well
Robert: Yeah, Obviously you do, Your happy enough with G. and C.
Robert: I do hope they`re worth it in the long run ;p
Robert: Delete my number.
Fay P.: You didn't tell me ANYTHING lat night
Fay P.: NOT A SINGLE THING
Robert: I tried to.
Fay P.: and now you come all raging
Robert: And you said you understood.
Fay P.: I did, Rob.
Fay P.: And I thought that was it.
Robert: Then you should understand WHY im fucking raging.
Fay P.: That we d never talk again
Fay P.: You were so closed up,i could just see it
Fay P.: you couldnt talk to me
Fay P.: so,if we dont have that,there s nothing
Robert: Just as well you have good old G. aint it.
Fay P.: I DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT WOW CAN YOU PLEASE STOP MAKING IT A PARAMETER??????
Robert: You dont..?
Fay P.: WE have SO much more important things here!
Robert: I find that hard to believe ;p
Robert: Yeah. My emotions for example.
Fay P.: Is this some kind of excuse to avoid the REAL issue here?
Robert: This is the REAL issue, you come to me and meanwhile your off with two others, IG or not, your still doing it. I dont give a fuck about perimeters or what other bollocks your going to give me.
Fay P.: If you told me you were willing to at least CONSIDER if we could try again,and ask me to even quit wow,I would do it,in a bllink.
Robert: I doubt it.
Fay P.: I don't care about those people,Rob.
Fay P.: To me,it s harmless fun.
Fay P.: I don't relate to them,I don't care.
Robert: Was it harmless fun when you knew it pissed me off before?
Fay P.: Before?
Fay P.: I didn't flirt before.
Robert: Right.. Sure you didnt.
Robert: C. is a new addition, But G..? Hes always been a problem.
Fay P.: Rob,you have to understand something.
Robert: No. Im going.
Robert: For the last time, I`ve had enough.
Fay P.: You were gone from last night weren't you
Fay P.: And this is just a suitable excuse,the easy way out
Fay P.: I paved it for you,without knowing it
Robert: Paved it for me..?
Fay P.: that s why you couldnt talk to me
Fay P.: cause you couldnt tell me to my face to forget about it
Robert: I couldnt talk to you for a mixture of reasons, reasons that are now IRRELEVANT.
Robert: It has nothing to do with you paving me a way out.
Robert: If i wanted a way out, I`de have done that -way- before.
Robert: Like a fool i let myself believe what you told me last night, I acted like a fucking FOOL.
Robert: And i tried my hardest to open up to you.
Robert: And what you think is "Harmless Fun"
Fay P.: What -do- ou want then? Last night it certainly looked like I couldn't even get what i asked for, WHICH WAS THE ABILITY TO JUST KEEP IN TOUCH WITH YOU
Robert: You think i want to stay in touch with you, when your doing THAT?
Robert: Having your "Harmless Fun"
Robert: What do i want.. Now?
Robert: I want you to delete my number.
Robert: And leave me the fuck alone.
Robert: Last night. I wanted us back together, And thats why i couldnt ask it. Even moreso after you broke down.
Fay P.: Why..?
Robert: What you thought was wrong, once again.
Robert: Why..? Because once again i felt emotionally connected to you, I missed you, I missed us.
Robert: And then you broke down, And i felt fucking guilty for it.
Fay P.: Why did you feel you couldn't say it?
Robert: I FELT -GUILTY-
Fay P.: WHY?????
Fay P.: WHAT S THAT GOT TO DO WITH ANYTHING??????
Robert: Because you ended us the first time because of distance, because of my age. What changed?
Fay P.: I told you.
Robert: Whats to say you wouldnt get bored of me again.
Fay P.: What...I NEVER GOT BORED
Fay P.: WHAT THE FUCK!
Fay P.: I FUCKING MISS YOU OKAY???????
Robert: I dont want to hear it anymore.
Fay P.: And I DO want another chance,but I couldnt say it last night when you yourself seemed to not want to talk to me at all!
Fay P.: Or not be able to!
Fay P.: I had to respect that!
Fay P.: I broke down when I realized that by ending us I'm doing it for the same reason you couldnt meet me!
Fay P.: CAUSE I M TOO FUCKING SCARED
Fay P.: Cause age and distance ARE a major issue and it IS most likely i ll end up hurt again!
Fay P.: But this isn't LIFE, okay?
Fay P.: Being safe and sound without ever risking anything,not daring reach out,THIS IS NOT LIFE! THIS IS FUCKING DYING FOR ME!
Robert: If your happy doing the things you want to do elsewhere.
Robert: Then do them.
Fay P.: I.Don't.Give.A.Fuck.
Fay P.: Even if last night we had sorted things out,I'd have told you.
Fay P.: That WoW had to stop being a factor
Fay P.: I don't want it
Robert: Regardless of it being a factor to us OOCly or not.
Robert: I wouldnt have you even flirting with anyone else IG.
Fay P.: I wouldn't WANT To flirt with anyone if I had you!
Fay P.: ffs!
Robert: You had me for hours last night, opening up. And after claiming you`ve missed me, you`ve been happy enough in a world of your own with them, its the same point.
Fay P.: What...you expect me to only be happy with you?
Robert: Lol.. You have no idea how bad that sounds.
Fay P.: I 'm happy when i m out with my friends,when i learn sthg new,when i hear music..wtf
Fay P.: I ve lost you
Fay P.: completely
Robert: So you need to ERP with half the server to be happy?
Fay P.: I HAVE NOT ERPED WITH A SINGLE PERSON SINCE SAL AND RAE ENDED!
Fay P.: FOR FUCK'S SAKE
Fay P.: Go ask damn it!
Robert: Again, for the one hundreth time.
Fay P.: GO FUCKING ASK THEM
Robert: I DO NOT WANT TO TALK TO G.
Fay P.: Then stop accusing me of stuff like that!
Robert: I will continue to do so.
Robert: Anyway, Im gone.
Robert: I hope they make you happy.
Fay P.: I want you.
Robert: Im not buying it.
Robert: Not this time.
Fay P.: Tell me your terms.
Fay P.: I don't FUCKING CARE ABOUT WOW
Robert: Im not telling you anything.
Fay P.: Fine.
Robert: Do what you want to do.
Fay P.: Sure. Can I come to Birmingham?
Robert: If you want to wander around a shithole, Be my guest.
Robert: Why dont you go to Italy?
Fay P.: I am ready,AGAIN,to spend money I don't have,to come meet you to SHOW you I'm serious,and you llinger on A STUPID GAME.
Fay P.: GET A FUCKING BETTER EXCUSE ROB
Robert: Lol..
Robert: The game isnt my excuse.
Robert: Your actions is my excuse.
Robert: You dont plead and tell me you miss me, yet do what your doing with other folk. Whether it be on a game or not. Its the same principle as a married couple, Wife plays WoW and talks dirtily or flirts with someone over the internet. Husband gets angry.
Fay P.: Tell me you feel nothing for me,tell me you don't give a fuck,tell me you don't care if I live or die,that you'd rather you'd never met me. That I was just pass-time,that all these are FUCKING excuses to avoid the REAL issue,cause you re JUST AS SCARED ABOUT WHERE THIS COULD LEAD.
Fay P.: TELL ME TH E FUCKING TRUTH
Robert: Sure.. I cried for an entire week over you because i dont feel anything for you.
Robert: I think i was the pass-time here.
Robert: And in addition.
Robert: All i was ever scared of, was losing you.
Fay P.: If you give us a REAL chance,I can stand by you in ways you cannot even imagine. If you give us a REAL chance,I don't care about terms. If you give us a REAL chance,and we end up falling for each other,you will be amazed,Rob.
Fay P.: I am NOT a cheating,flirting-around person.
Fay P.: Accuse me of not seeing things i should see,
Fay P.: of taking stuff like flirting on a game too lightly when i shouldnt
Fay P.: of ppl flirting with me and not even realizing it,
Fay P.: of wasting my time in things not worth the trouble
Fay P.: even ppl
Fay P.: But don't accuse me of not knowing how to commit.
Fay P.: I want you.
Fay P.: I want a chance to get to know you,for real.
Fay P.: If you don't want the same,for a real reason,please,not cause of some game...
Fay P.: Then I WILL leave you alone.
Robert: I did want it.
Robert: I wanted it so badly before, But what we had ended, you told me you had hoped to find the security with a more appropriate candidate.
Fay P.: I'm a n00b when it comes to relationships Rob.
Robert: Its not a problem.. I tried to accept all that. But last night after i began to ween myself away from these problems..
Robert: It grabbed me by the neck again, I found myself wanting you again, i realised what i missed, I realised everything i lost in more proportion.
Fay P.: And I realized that chemistry is more important to me than age,distance,money,goals,whatever.
Robert: You said i dont know what you smell like, feel like.. But i know i loved your accent, your voice.
Robert: I know i loved your personality.
Fay P.: Past tense hurts...
Robert: I want to believe we still have a chance.. But my head is all over the place Fay.
Robert: I know you dont want to believe it.. But ingame or not, Its -you- behind the character, its you feeling those emotions. When someone says something funny IG, you laugh IRL.
Robert: I know i sound like an addict, But i know what point im trying to make here.
Robert: Its not the game.
Robert: Its the person behind the character.
Fay P.: And that is true.
Fay P.: But liking someone,doesn't mean I relate to them or feel for them.
Robert: When you say, its meaningless.
Robert: You dont mean it, do you?
Fay P.: I do.
Fay P.: I won't feel loss if G. or C. disappear.
Robert: Im certain you would.
Fay P.: Trust me,Rob.
Fay P.: I wouldn't.
Fay P.: I don't let people in,REALLY in,easily.
Fay P.: I didn't feel loss with ppl I had sthg going IRL.
Fay P.: I felt loss with you.
Fay P.: That's what got me thinking.
Fay P.: Among other things...
Fay P.: Missing you.
Robert: Whats there to miss about me..?
Fay P.: Are you serious?
Robert: I cant talk to you.
Robert: Im hopeless in most the areas you need the most.
Fay P.: I don't know if we'll click IRL,Rob. I've told you this.
Fay P.: But I want a chance to see if we will.
Fay P.: You said last night that if I was there,it wouldn't be the way it was on SKype. Or that's the way I understood it at least.
Fay P.: It's not easy to talk to someone you re not used to.
Fay P.: If we met IRL a few times and we found we couldnt even talk,then ok,it would be pointless indeed
Fay P.: I need you to be open,and honest.
Fay P.: You can't do it on Skype,and I understand that.
Fay P.: You seem to be able to do it when we type.
Fay P.: A bit at least.
Fay P.: I can only hope it will be better face to face.
Robert: And it frustrates me.
Robert: It really frustrates me that i cant be vocal with my emotions.
Robert: But i`ve never been able to do that, not even to my parents.
Robert: Its not about -you-.
Robert: Its about me bottling up my emotions.
Fay P.: Can you show them with actions then?
Fay P.: I'm insecure Rob,I need to know what you feel.
Robert: Its the only way i can show them.
Robert: When im angry, I punch things, I smash things.
Robert: When im upset, I just lock myself away, I want my own space.
Robert: I cry to -myself-
Robert: When im feeling lovey-dovey, I cuddle, I kiss.
Robert: But i cant put my emotions into words, Not over skype atleast, Or i struggle too.
Robert: I struggle to find answers to my own questions sometimes.
Robert: What i feel now..? I feel like crying, but in the same breath i just want to rip my door off its hinges.
Fay P.: I told you last night.
Fay P.: You're a guy.
Fay P.: Men usually speak with their choices and their actions.
Fay P.: It's just...this way of communication,of relating,is SO based on words.
Fay P.: So...brainy,you know?
Fay P.: The body is hardly involved.
Fay P.: You could just hug me and I could just kiss you and we wouldn't have to say half of the things we've shared in so many different occasions.
Robert: Another thing.. I tend to express feelings through Music.
Fay P.: *nods* I know. That makes two of us.
Robert: When im angry, I listen to stuff like Pantera, Disturbed.
Robert: You`ve been on the recieving end of my lovey-dovey music.
Fay P.: And it wasn't lost on me.
Fay P.: I just...I find it fraeking hilarious,Rob.
Fay P.: I'm 35 years old and have only slept with ONE guy in my entire life EXACTLY because i don't let ppl in easily,and cause I can NOT just sleep with someone,with no emotion whatsoever,and here you are...
Fay P.: accusing me of being...
Fay P.: a whore? a cheating person? a flir-addict? Whatever..
Robert: *Again
Robert: Its the actions speaking for you.
Fay P.: Newsflash, then,Rob. I've only slept with ONE man. Ever. What does THAT tell you?
Fay P.: Flirt? Sure,I do it.
Fay P.: Crack naughty jokes? Provoke?
Fay P.: All the freaking time.
Fay P.: Come out as if I'm really laid back when it comes to sex? Hell yeah.
Fay P.: Actually giving myself to someone?
Fay P.: Once.
Fay P.: I wish I was different.
Fay P.: I wish I didn't care.
Fay P.: I wish I could just fuck around like everyone else.
Robert: And yet.. If you were like that, You wouldnt be the awesome person you are.
Robert: You dont need to "fuck around like everyone else" to be a somebody.
Robert: You know what i wish? I wish i was like you.
Fay P.: I'm telling you this in the hope of you believing me when I tell you that stuff llike what happens on WoW means shit to me.
Robert: I regret half the times i had sex with people.
Fay P.: I regret half the times I didn't when I had the chance.
Fay P.: Cause I knew I'd end up crying in a guy's arms that doesn't give a shit about me.
Fay P.: And then I start playing wow and people just think...
Fay P.: Nanahr,still calls me poison lady. The kind that every man wants but no one gets.
Fay P.: According to him all of Stormwind wanted me,I could have anyone I wanted .
Fay P.: I heard him say stuff like that and was like : What are you talking about? It's a GAME!
Fay P.: Remember what you told me about Alk last night?
Robert: If you say Alkent tried it on with you..
Robert: I really wont be amused.
Fay P.: Good Lord no.
Fay P.: When you told me that he's annoying you cause he's showing off the ppl he's ERPed with.
Robert: Its not that.
Fay P.: Your reaction was "hey,if it 's that easy or you re that good,go do it IRL"
Robert: Its the fact he boasts day in day out about how many women hes got.
Fay P.: Precisely.
Fay P.: And your reaction was justifiably so "You serious mate? On a game? Big deal!"
Fay P.: That's how I feel about the stuff I do with G.,C.,anyone.
Fay P.: And I know that you can say now : Hey, isn't this how WE started out,Fay?
Fay P.: Couldn't it lead to something like that,again,like it did with us?"
Robert: So you do understand my point, to some degree.
Fay P.: I do.
Fay P.: But with you Rob it was just..
Fay P.: It's been SO long,to start with.
Robert: G. is popular, Im sure if hes a good ERPer, its all good.
Fay P.: And then,when we ERPed,by whole body was REACTING to it,can you understand that?
Robert: Theres always someone better. If the whole of Stormwind -wants- you. They obviously have some sort of reason for that?
Fay P.: Why...why are you doing this now?
Fay P.: I didn't say all of SW wants me. It's someone else's words.
Fay P.: And I don't care if there's someone better,what the fuck..
Fay P.: What I care about is what YOU give and do,and I DONT FUCKING MEAN ERP HERE
Fay P.: You're nice,and kind,and sensitive without being gay,and funny,and not afraid to embarass yourself..
Robert: I need to clear my head Fay..
Robert: Whether theres a line between Real life and Ingame here. I`ll never accept that you flirt IG. And if that makes me selfish, then im selfish.
Robert: But i cant be around you, while your doing that.
Robert: Goodnight Fay.
Fay P.: I'll stop,if you still want me.
Robert: Heh..
Robert: I never stopped wanting you, But im not going to stop you having fun.
Robert: Take care.
Fay P.: Please don't go..
Fay P.: Remember when we had that talk and we bot hadmitted we were borderline already?
Fay P.: That it felt as a relationship even tho it wasn't ?
Fay P.: You said then you didn't want a relatioship
Fay P.: That the online thing was fine for you
Robert: So you said to me before.
Robert: But i didnt say the online thing was fine for me, If thats how you understood it, then your wrong.
Fay P.: Then I am,cause that's what I understood.
Fay P.: I thought all you wanted was Sal and Rae.
Fay P.: Not Rob and Fay.
Robert: ...
Fay P.: And then I started feeling lonely.
Fay P.: And it all...escalated.
Robert: If all i wanted was an IG thing.
Robert: I wouldnt have done half the stuff i did with you.
Robert: YOU.
Fay P.: It could have been some fun on the side.
Robert: ...
Robert: What the fuck do you take me for..?
Robert: >__<
Robert: Thats got to be more insulting than anything else thats been said.
Fay P.: You're right
Fay P.: Rob,I don't wanna flirt around in a silly game with people I don't care around ok?
Fay P.: When I do that,it s to fool my lonelilness.
Fay P.: I want something real.
Fay P.: This isn't...your choice. It's not something YOU will have to impose on me.
Fay P.: When it started feeling like a relationship with us,I told you,i was out,a guy started flirting with me,IRL,and I was thinking about you and whether that was cheating or wth was going on
Fay P.: I'm sorry for insulting you
Fay P.: That's...my past catching up with me again.
Robert: You need to realise, Im nothing like your ex.
Robert: Do you remember that one night, When we were still barely talking that i poked you and i tried to support you when you felt low, I dropped -everything- that had happened, Just because i wanted to be there for you.
Robert: We spent awhile just acting silly.
Fay P.: I remember.
Fay P.: And to this day I wonder.
Robert: I never stopped caring about you, And i dont think i ever will stop.
Robert: As much as i could hate you, I`de never let you fall. And thats the truth.
Fay P.: Can you please tell me what it is that makes you care?
Fay P.: Or,what it is that attracted you to me?
Robert: I dont even need to think about it..
Robert: I adore you, the ground you stand upon.
Robert: Why is that..? Because everything i knew about you when we were an item was just.. I love your personality, i love how i -can- talk to you if i need too, Your accent, your voice.. That cute sound you make when your nervous or when you lose something.
Robert: How you pronounce and say my name makes me tingle.. I know it sounds stupid, but its true.
Robert: And yes.. I believe your a unique, a special and attractive woman.
Robert: And i can understand Nanahr when he says, Everyone wants you. -You- Fay.
Robert: Because yes, Your a Gem.
Robert: And i cant help but sometimes think.. "Shes too good for me anyway"
Fay P.: But I want you :(
Robert: Can you give me afew days..?
Fay P.: As many as you want.
Robert: I need some time alone.. Away from all this.
Fay P.: *nods* Okay.
Robert: Sleep tightly Fay.
Fay P.: You too Rob.
Fay P.: Take care.