Cantar De Procella

It's changing.


Ever since I booked the tickets, -I-'m changing.


The finality of it..


Treading on dangerous grounds again. I feel like I did when I first met Y.,I could see him coming,I could SO see him coming and I just KNEW, I knew he'd be fire, I remember thinking to myself while looking at him "Not now damn it..I'm doing good,not now". Little good did it do of course, I fell madly in love with him none the less.


I can so see him coming.


And yes, it excites and terrifies me at the same time.

Back off? Are you nuts? Now?

No fucking way.

I'll experience this. For better or worse.


I just pray..I just hope I've learned my lessons and I won't repeat the same mistakes all over again.

I, need, to move on.

And that, requires a certain need to be satisfied.